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Dear Jake,
If you’re reading this letter, then you’re much older than at the time this letter is being written. Right now, you are 4 years old and you are the absolute light in my life. I’m writing this letter to you because I feel like I need to explain, or maybe justify, the first 3.5 rocky years of our relationship.
When Daddy and I decided to have you, I thought I was ready to be a mom; In reality, I wasn’t at all and I realized this quickly, within the first few hours of your precious, little life. This really isn’t the worrisome part, though. There are many women out there who become moms when they aren’t ready and they handle it quite gracefully. They’re naturals. I’m not – and that was the worrisome part.
I was an insecure, anxious, crying mess; And you, my sweet boy, were giving me a run for my money! I would have struggled with becoming a mom even if God had given me the easiest baby ever known to man. Instead, he gave me you – a challenge! I wasn’t prepared, and I was failing miserably.
What I didn’t see then is that there was a brilliant, unique, and creative little personality that drove your difficult temperament. It all makes sense to me now. But at that time, I didn’t understand. I didn’t know why you cried all the time, why we couldn’t ever put you down, why I couldn’t soothe you. I couldn’t figure out how other moms were able to snap cute pictures of themselves with their smiling babies, how they had time to do their hair, or how they were able to bring their babies to public places without causing a scene.
When the doctor labeled you as “colicky” and “high needs”, I left her office crying right along with you. I felt as though you were broken and it was just confirmed that there was nothing I could do to fix you. I didn’t know what that meant for you. I obsessively wondered if you would be unhappy for your entire life.
This is you at 1 month old! You refused to smile 😉
Sadly, I began to further emotionally withdraw from you. It breaks my heart to know I did that. You see, Jakey Face, I was succumbing to postpartum anxiety and depression. It really had nothing to do with you. None of this was your fault at all. You were a blessing to so many people, including me, from the very second you were born.
This sickness kept me from seeing the light that you were in this world. I see it now so clearly: So much so that sometimes I think my heart will burst with my love for you.
I didn’t get help for my sickness because I didn’t think I was sick. I thought I was just a bad mother; Someone who wasn’t meant to have children.
For the next 3 years, I faked my confidence in my role as your mommy. Inside I felt uncomfortable and inadequate. During these years, you grew incredibly close with Daddy. He seemed to understand you when I couldn’t. I secretly resented the relationship you had with each other, which pushed you both even farther away from me. To this day, you two have a bond that any father and son would be envious of! Now, I’m grateful for that.
Even though I loved you so much, I didn’t hug you, kiss you, or comfort you as much as you needed. I didn’t think you wanted me to. And, as insane as this is, I was scared to. I was so in my own head that I didn’t see how I was going wrong. Now I see that you wanted nothing more than for me to show abundant affection to you, even when it didn’t seem that way.
Here are one of the hundreds of costumes you put together!
There has not been a second that’s gone by in your life when I didn’t love you with all of my heart; But I wasn’t there for you on the level that I should have been. However, something clicked for me in the last 10 months and I finally started to find my stride in motherhood. I became the mommy that you deserve and need me to be, and it’s been so wonderful! We’ve grown so close. In fact, you actually prefer me over daddy many times (shhhhh) ;).
Our bonding time didn’t go as it does in the movies. We’ve certainly had our ups and downs. Would I change any of it? I’m not sure. The relationship that you and I have now is beyond what I ever dreamed – and maybe we had to go down the unbeaten path to get here.
I guess what I really want you to know is that I love you and am so proud of you. The things you do that used to drive my blood pressure up are now some of the things that make you YOU. When you push back and challenge me and Daddy (which you constantly do!), I secretly swell with pride!
If you’re reading this as an adult, I hope that you have stayed strong-minded, opinionated, and brave. I’m certain you are still sweet, polite, and kind. I bet you’re coloring outside the lines of life, and the best part about that is that you don’t care what anyone else thinks. My wish is that you stay this way forever. Don’t let the world dim your light.
You have quite the imagination – here you are at the “beach”!
You won’t be good at everything, and that’s ok. Know your strengths and capitalize on them. Continue to push boundaries and ask questions. Keep your curiosity. Use your boldness to lead others. Speak your mind with respect and kindness. Use the energy in that temper of yours to move mountains. Keep your love of music and stay open-minded.
Jake, you are truly one of a kind. God gave me you for a reason. I have learned more about life in these past four years than I had learned in the 30 years before you. You have given me a deeper meaning and brought true perspective to my life.
I promise to be the best mommy that I can be and I am here for you, always. I love you, I love you, I love you.
Mommy
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In December of 2017 Donald Trump made history be recognizing Jerusalem as the capital of Israel. Why is this big news? Because by this the Jewish people are able to push forward in bringing about their long awaited third temple prophesied in the Bible.
The Jewish people have been without a temple since the destruction of the second temple in 70 AD by the invasion of the Roman army. This event was prophesied by Jesus in Matthew 24:1-2 where He told His disciples that not one stone would be left upon another.
The Jewish people are looking forward to not only having a temple once again, but to also receive their messiah who they have been long awaiting for. They say this man will be a spiritual guide and political leader to all nations gathering all religions under one worship.
History tells us that the Jewish people did not receive Jesus as their Messiah even though He fulfilled 300 Messianic prophecies concerning His birth place, details of His life, His mission, His nature, His death, and His ressurection. Isaiah chapter 53 is a clear prophecy of the Messiah who is to come and how He would be put to death for our transgressions just as Jesus was.
Biblical prophecy tells us that this Jewish messiah who will take the stage will be the antichrist “who opposes and exalts himself above all that is called God or that is worshiped, so that he sits as God in the temple of God, showing himself that he is God” (2 Thessalonians 2:4). For a time he will bring about a false peace, but “Therefore when you see the ‘abomination of desolation,’ spoken of by Daniel the prophet, standing in the holy place (Matthew 24:15)…then there will be great tribulation, such as has not been since the beginning of the world until this time, no, nor ever shall be” (Matthew 24:21).
Another major Biblical prophecy is being fulfilled through the rapid growth of technology in our world. We can see how we have been conditioned through convenience in our every day life in different forms. More specifically how we make payments.
We began with tangible currency unto having debit and credit cards in the digital age. These cards now having chips within them, and some even allowing you to tap your card on a reader to make payment. Along with self checkout lines in our market places and the cryptocurrency industry having been making a rapid climb in such form as bitcoin. We can see all these stepping stones that are leading to ultimately a cashless society.
Would you believe that the Bible foretold of a cashless society over 2000 years ago? In the book of Revelation 13:16-18 we see this prophecy: “He causes all, both small and great, rich and poor, free and slave, to receive a mark on their right hand or on their foreheads, and that no one may buy or sell except one who has the mark or the name of the beast, or the number of his name. Here is wisdom. Let him who has understanding calculate the number of the beast, for it is the number of a man: His number is 666.”
Referring to the last days, this could only be speaking of a cashless society, which we have yet to see, but are heading towards. Otherwise, we could still buy or sell without the mark among others if physical money was still currency. This Mark couldn’t be spiritual because the word references two different physical locations. If it was spiritual it would just say in the forehead. RFID microchip technology will be the future of a one world cashless society being implanted in our right hand or forehead. Revelation 13:11-15 tells us that a false prophet will arise deceiving many to take the mark because of the miracles he does before men.
For proof of this, watch both videos below:
The first video on YouTube is titled, “Warning From Man Who Designed RFID Microchip”
Carl Sanders sat in seventeen New World Order meetings with heads-of-state officials such as Henry Kissinger and Bob Gates of the C.I.A. to discuss plans on how to bring about this one-world system. The government commissioned Carl Sanders to design a microchip for identifying and controlling the peoples of the world—a microchip that could be inserted under the skin with a hypodermic needle (a quick, convenient method that would be gradually accepted by society).
Carl Sanders, with a team of engineers behind him, with U.S. grant monies supplied by tax dollars, took on this project and designed a microchip that is powered by a lithium battery, rechargeable through the temperature changes in our skin. Without the knowledge of the Bible (Brother Sanders was not a Christian at the time), these engineers spent one-and-a-half-million dollars doing research on the best and most convenient place to have the microchip inserted.
Guess what? These researchers found that the forehead and the back of the hand(the two places Revelation says the mark will go) is not just the most convenient place, but is also the only viable place for rapid, consistent temperature changes in the skin to recharge the lithium battery. The microchip is approximately seven millimetres in length, .75 millimetres in diameter, about the size of a grain of rice. It is capable of storing pages upon pages of information about you. All your general history, work history, crime record, health history, and financial data can be stored on this chip.
Brother Sanders believes that this microchip, which he regretfully helped design, is the “mark” spoken about in Revelation 13:16–18. The original Greek word for “mark” is “charagma,” which means a “scratch or etching.” It is also interesting to note that the number 666 is actually a word in the original Greek. The word is “chi xi stigma,” with the last part, “stigma,” also meaning “to stick or prick.
Since it is said that this RFID Chip uses a lithium battery, a doctor was asked what would happen if that lithium leaked into the body. He said a terrible sore would appear in that spot. This is what the book of Revelation says: “And the first(Angel) went, and poured out his vial on the earth; and there fell a noisome and grievous sore on the men which had the mark of the beast, and on them which worshipped his image” (Revelation 16:2 NKJV).
Another video to watch is an infamous interview done with movie producer Aaron Russo titled, “Aaron Russo RFID Human Implant Chip”
He produced such movies as ‘Mad as Hell’, ‘Trading Places’, and ‘America: Freedom to Fascism’. He gained the attention of a man named Nick Rockefeller who saw the movie ‘Made as Hell’ and knew Aaron was running for governor of Nevada. Nick befriended Aaron and wanted to recruit him into their society because of the influence and impact he knew Aaron was having. Nick told him 11 months before 9-11 occurred that there would be an event, and from that event they would invade Afghanistan and Iraq to help build the New World Order. And that there will be this war on terror where there is no real enemy, and the whole thing is a hoax; a tool used by the American Government to take over their own people. Aaron asked Nick why they are doing these things, because they have all the money and power in the world, what is the purpose of all of this. Nick replied by saying their ultimate goal is to put a microchip in everybody, so they can have total control over the people.
“Then a third angel followed them, saying with a loud voice, “If anyone worships the beast and his image, and receives his mark on his forehead or on his hand, he himself shall also drink of the wine of the wrath of God, which is poured out full strength into the cup of His indignation. He shall be tormented with fire and brimstone in the presence of the holy angels and in the presence of the Lamb. And the smoke of their torment ascends forever and ever; and they have no rest day or night, who worship the beast and his image, and whoever receives the mark of his name” (Revelation 14:9-11 NKJV).
People have been saying for centuries that the end is coming, but we needed two key components, the third temple, and the technology to fulfill Revelation 13:16-18 that speaks of a cashless society.
Visit http://WWW.BIBLEFREEDOM.COM to see proof for these things and why the Bible truly is the word of God!
If you haven’t already, it is time to seek God with all your heart. Jesus loves you more than you could imagine. He wants to have a relationship with you and redeem you from your sins. Turn to Him and repent while there is still hope! This is forever…God bless!
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